something special about you

my forever and always

2010-02-23T08:49:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS GUY

i love you so damn much,you're my 24-7 and i just can't get enough of you.

Happy 1 year and 8 months sayang.

i miss you real bad!

2010-02-20T05:54:00.000-08:00

i miss this girl right here

hey ka,i miss you already. i've been an emo eversince,back to square one i guess.when i woke up this morning,it felt empty. no more "ka pkai kan me eye line,nipis2 ah","you pkai baju apa?" "saiz kan nie?" no more all that those guy stuff,the outings and all.

and i dint get to cry berabisly di airport cus of my stupi eyes.its killing me.i just wished that youll be back home soon. like another suprise perhaps. i still rember you balik brunei and shout "NEL!!" but i ignored cus i tot it was kaka arnie and when i saw you i was blank. and started to cry.

and i havent been thanking you enough for everything.from asking babu to fly me off to singapore,from all the things you got me. and all the fun things we did together.

come back home as fast as you can please! me macam tatot kan skulh ah.and me banar2 mau skulh overseas.

and i miss being random with you like being on skype tho im next to you,or me angkat you with no reason.

hope to be more

2010-02-17T08:06:00.000-08:00

im gonna miss you bitch.

and i love you forever and always<3

music

2009-11-30T10:02:00.000-08:00

people express their feelings thro such ways and most commonly thro music.

most people would ask someone to listen to a particular song cus it has a nice rhythm or it has a meaningful meaning wich someone could reflect or relate to their lives or what they are feeling at that moment, and when they listen to that particular song, it will eventually play on your mind on a repeaat cus its just so nice and your just touched by it.what more if tht song was dedicated by someone special. after all it is music to ears.

well i guess its just not in trend nowadays that they dont even rember or even care who gave the song to them. well they would only be bothered to listen to the song if the is intresting? i should say

but in my case,it doesnt matter wether or not i like tht song. i will still hear tht song till i eventually like it in order for me to rember about stuff

well thats my oppinon
sorry its all messed up and the crapiest blog ive ever blogged about

i copied the boyfriend

2009-11-29T10:04:00.000-08:00

do blogging still exist?

it seems like the world of blogging is fading away. little by little people started to stop blogging. is it just not the trend anymore or people just lost their interest in blogging? they rather go on facebook or twitter. its the most rated application nowadays.

as for me i stopped blogging as exam was closing in and i actually got bored of blogging. but the feeling grew back as there's nothing much im going to do for my holiday. and while waiting for my result to be out im sure blogging will be my bestfriend. hehehe..

well there isnt much to do as i cant go to work or do anything else. so best to stay at home or look after grand parents. soo yeah. well that's what i have been doing for the past few weeks.

i will update more tomorrow or whenever i have the time then. cheers.

i love you sayang.

ily

2009-06-23T12:34:00.000-07:00

and its been a year.

khairi i love you more and more each day

23rd

2009-06-23T04:00:00.000-07:00

today i woke up to a text and it made me say "wth!aww..." and i smile my self silly.i cant belive it tho i see it comming.anyway i went for my jog/hike at tasek.and it was not that fun.sunday was much more funner.and i dint fall.i think.

yeahh im into tasek now.cus IM FAT!then i went fr a cup of bluberry tea and some mushroom quiche.wich was dissapointing. but my breakfast was fun pasal they have intresting stories. and the whole car journey was fun.i learn something valuable.

i went out tadi,to empire to watch angels and demons.i think i need to read the book first so tht i can undersatnd better and actually enjoy it and i went out fr food.

i miss the gang,its been ages

i need to meet up with you guys,like the whole gang.

tommorow itll be a year.bet your amaze....its not suprising lagi cus i love him berabis-ly.

Finally

2009-06-10T19:54:00.000-07:00

yeah finally.exams is over.tho my combined sciennce paper was hard,but like arif said its do-able.

so here i am writting.im with arif right not at my place eating pringles.well wer gona go off to pick the brothers and faiz first. then wer gona go off to frats for lunch then go to empire to watch night at the muesem i guess.

so ill continue later.
syah keluar

thank you guys

2009-06-05T06:21:00.000-07:00

so i promise that ill start blogging when i get a laptop.so yeah here it is

it seems that im having alot of fun these days eventho i have my junes and mid year. from going lunching with them,to hanging out at my place and yesterday.

040609 yeah i wont forget about that. i went to school and people starts to wish a happy birthday and i have my combine science paper that day. i spend almost the whole day with arif. me and arif wanted to go pizza hut to eat after the exam and we did and the zainals and danial came along. i know bagus ah head boy and the ass. head boy escape. tho it was funny how danial was so worried and he became so quiet.

when wer done eating arif and i drop the zainals and danial off to school. and we went to yayasan to get some stuff. yeah arif was the one who picked my outfit out untuk ke empire. then we went back to my place and change.

then we went to empire with gee,hafiz,ida,senusi,khairi,aime and arif. oh and aimes little brother, we went for a swim except for aime.yeah it was fun.when i went back home i was a little bit moody cus out of many peolpe this 2 particular person dint wish me, and my parents was not home and whats worse is that they dint call and stuff and i was hungry.so i started complaining that it was so not a memorable birthday

so i was supose to go to ilotus for family dinner kan,its a tradition that we go out for every birthday. so i went into the car and out of nowhere my dad drove all the way to huaho manggis.tmy parents told me that they change the venue and they had to get some stuff lah. so i just go with the flow. and my mom was like "eh kan membali tissue dulu eh" so we went to super market and i kindoff knew something fishy was going on as my mom wont let go of her phone.so when wer at the counter my mom said she forgot to bring along her purse. so we went back home cus we need to get the purse.

basically we went that far just to get tissue.stupid?yes... so my dad asked me to go run and take my moms purse at her room. this is where the most exciting part goes. i open my door and all the lights were turned off except for small lights. i talked to myself loudly and said "eh ter trip kah?" so everyone was there,well not everyone but yeah.and started saying suprise holding ballons and obviosly i was shocked. and my reaction was so stupid and embarassing. yeah i knew it something was going onn. i was mad at people for making me feel that way; shocked and ebarssed.

no wonder everyone was being weird from not texting,from people asking what was my plan and kidnapping me then rachelle one of the plan maker was not there.abd she dint wissh me. so i was annoyed. and after few minutes she came out of nowhere with faiz. yeah everyhting was part of the plan not wishing me,going nasi katok on wends and everything.well it was a mission acompilsh for them.

i send rachel,bel,joel,ivan,dan and the zainals home.iit was a nice road trip.hahahah well it was a long drive but it was fun.

syaza the other planner for this suprise thing slept over at my placce and we stayed up til five,yeah talking about nothing important at all.

it was an awesome birthday cus to think about it like you knoww....

anyway i would like to say thank you to each and everyone who wished me and made my birthday and awesome one in this blog but im scared i missed out some names. so thanks everyone.

i just waisted alot of your time reading this post.hahah
xo

a special thank you for syaza and rachelle for the suprise brithday.

jobless

2009-03-09T10:25:00.000-07:00

anyway,its late night now.well still early for me.

its strange how some of my early sleeper friends are wide awake including my boyfirend.isnt that strange? anway,i was chatting with my firends.so i came up with the idea,well i watched it or got it from somewhere that if you wrote a list about your dream guy,it might actualy came true.

so i told my friends to do about the list,and my list was actually long,suprisingly.but yet again its a "what if situation". and the list goes on.well like we all said,that it will be the perfect guy ever.but yet again its the reality,guys dont do that unless they wer told.anyway we did that just for fun and its not tht wer not thankful for our boyfirends. but yeah. well my boyfriends great,atleast thats what i wana belive in.

so we planned to switch this plan and add to it every month.

awesome days

2009-03-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

multiplys and this laptop is being a bitch.seriously! anyway i had a blast since yesterday.and today was just awesome altough we cried for a bit.

so lets start with yesterday.sunday- i woke up early, im gona make that as a habit.waking up early in the morning even if its a holiday. so i went off with my parents to buy some stuff for the function at my place later at night. so my aunt called and we had a heavy breakfast at taurean. i really love it when i have a heavy breakfast. i had fun listining to their convo as it always makes me laugh my head off.then we went and shop for a bit.then we went to my cousins mandi berlawat or something.since im not comming with them to new zealand,i plan to go with mama to go to kl with my cousins.my dad allows it,but my mom was like "balik jua sudh babu tu,by the time kau kan belaya.liat lah if you can go".i was kinda pissed at that.like mama said."eksen tu babu mu ah,ia mau ikut jua bah tu".well im still pissed at tht.well lets just hope aku pigi.at night was where all the fun really hapens.we had this maulud zikir and tahlil function at home.it was fun because you get to see and catch up things with you cousin.and gila there was a drama which was so funney.well i had a blast lah.and my brother came back home from the camp.so we went to bed akhir.it was fun tho

so today-so they all planned to have a girls day out.cause i guess its the last time the 4 of us get together and memalui. so we went for brunch i should say.we went to escapade.its always nice."free sushi.always good" oh i did everyones eye liner at escapade and everyone stared at us.sort of embrasing. so we ate and we cried for a bit.oh well.then we had to walk to mall as kakabilah wanted to cut her hair so we went to hair rock.and im gona curl my hair!yay..anyway then we had to walk back to the car.and we had troubles finding a gas station.tadi kereta kami kan terberanti pasal nada kadai minyak buka.hahah.well we wer all stressed out.but everythin was fine after that.then we went back to gadong to watch watch men.it was a nice move eventhough it was a long one and it was not tht appropriate for kids.but it was a fine movie.then i got my self doughnut and we went and ate at mcdonalds.and trust me it was a not worth spending money,buying the chicken prosperity burger.im still not satisfied about it.ooh for th first time i took alot of pictures,well this is to prove my parents tht i do use a camera,so you have to get me one now.well im to tired to type everything down,at night my angah from my dad side picked me up from my tuion place,yeah very new.and tonights tution clas was awesome.that kid was so adorable and funney.

okay now i have a headache.and its boring tht my brother went back to camp.

im kinda scared for my assesment.i am so not prepare for this

just felt like it.

2009-03-04T08:36:00.000-08:00

since i have nothing to do, plus i feel like bloging today.

school was the usuals. we had maths for the first period and when i came i was suprise that binoy was not there.so we had a free period,well sort of. we wer given this paper,which i totaly dont know how to do it properly.so yeahh.as everyone knows i love to mengantam. i actually finish my work which i plan not to do it at first.

then we had english,arif was mad,well it was our fault tho.well sorry riff.i find it funny at first,well i always finds it funny when a guy is mad.seriously i dont know why.i know weird. well he was alright after that,i guess so he is.then it was history,as usual we would study but it was fun other then i was tired and sleepy.

break time was the usuals.poa was fun i should say,cus i get to study and understand again! well time flys so fast. then when it was geo i copied everything and i like the teacher,shes that not bad afterall.welll better then cigu mirul.

we had our chemistry and econs extra class which i skipped both of them.well i plan to go for chemistry but me and rachel end up going to her place. and i ditched my extra class for cross country training.which was so trying tht i cant stand it.i felt so exausted. this was new.then we went back to school with mr james.and then i drop rachell off.

back home i showered,chat and studied.i was sort of moddy awal2 as i was so tired and i had a head ache.but when i was about to study my sister came and disturbed me.well i actually study today and nothing goes in well maybe a little thanks to my sister and all.then i watched tv and i got all hyper all,and i went baack online and my dad finds me annoying cus he said i talk alot.and for the first time i sat next to him while chatting and i felt fine tht i dont care if he reads my convo.

ooh and today,i was so anoying and perasan and setaie i should say.oh welll

sunday

2009-02-23T00:51:00.000-08:00

i dont know why,but lately i cant sleep well.yesterday i woke up at 5,yeah even earlier then my school days.so i watched jon and kate plus 8,they are so adorable and so cute.i always smile my self silly whenever i watch jon and kate plus 8.

we went to dynasty for break fast.it was fun. chi eez an even myrah came.myrah is so cute but she was kinda moody at first.babies. well when wer done we went to mall,we dint do much.oooh i waisted my money buying some crappy movies.oh well.so when it was lunch time,we went to bridal cafe.well i was too full so i just drank 2 cans of softdrink.gosh no wonder im fat.

cheeko called and ask us to pick her up as she wana go for a swim. ohh and my mom was kindof moody,which was funny and annoying? then we went to my aunts house and we chit chatt for a bit,but then me and my sister had to go and pick up cheeko.and we both ditched our parents till night.oooh and my tution was cancelled again which means that i dint have any maths tution class for the whole week.i might be changing my tution place soon.awesome! well im just excited.

we went for a swim.it was fun altough it was so batah and cold.when we wer done with everything,i was craving for kfc.me,cheeko and my sister went to kfc for dinner and it was so yummy. we went back home and chit chat for the whole night.it was fun actually.

i was to lazy to send cheeko back home so i asked her to just stay at our place.so we watched 4 dvds.and for the first time cheeko dint fall asleep.at alll.isnt tht impressive.we went to sleep kinda of late.and yet again my sleep was not a good one.*sigh

and i figure swimming,and staying up late is such a bad idea.i think im gonna be sick.

i finish all my homeworks and my tution work.i am so proud of me now.

a fun friday.

2009-02-20T05:42:00.000-08:00

my old school car is back! alright,now i dont have to use that small car to school anymore.but the car smells.okay random.anyway, today was fun i should say. well i was suppose to go out with my mom to go somewhere with my aunt.but i recive a text msg from syaza saying that wer gonna meet up at my place with rachel.which i dint know anything about this.so i ditched my mom. its so kesian everyone ditched her,my sister went to a party,my dad was "BUSY". so i guess menyamal kali ya,as she went off with her friends. HAHA.nadawah,i was just playing around.

i watched license to wed just now,its an awesome movie.i never get tired of watching it.definetly one of my favorite movie. so after mengaji i was so bored,so to kill time i decided to print some pictures,finaly i gt it done. around 4 i went to mall to pick rachel up so we went straight away to my place.

well when we got home,we wer talking about tons of stuff,well thats what girls do. well i was still busy printing pictures. then i talked to my brother for a bit today.its been awhile since we last skype. when it was 5 i guess, syaza came.and it was more funner as she got tons of stories plus its been ages since the 3 of us get together.well it was fun.welll when it was nearly 630 it was boring as they all had to go.

so in the car otw to drop off syaza,i talk much.about something weird.well me and rachel went to hua ho to get our files for english. then in the car otw to drop off rachel,we talk much.well actually rachel did the talking. well it was fun.

at home,my parents wer being so funny.well today would be one of the best day of the week i should say.okay maybe i should stop now as i need to find all my english paper.

happy valentine's day.

2009-02-14T09:19:00.000-08:00

awesome day. well school's fun today.well except for economics,the teacher was like "syaznul" however he pronounce my name.he was being so annoying.well we had our econs test,and i suck as always.i love malay today.okay lets skip the school part.

my cousins wer at my place,and we hang out.we wer being all panat.and watching my cousin play this game was so funny that we laugh so badly.then when my sister went off for her interview,my cousins wer being "SO SWEET." that they stay at my place and they acompany me.but i was being kinda rude to them as i went for my afternoon sleep. we wer suppose to go out for a high tea with the whole family for valentines day.but i overslept,plus everyone was kinda busy.so wer just gonna have the whole thing tommorow i guess.oooo and i dint go to my cousins wedding tadi.

night,i went to gadong and i decided to cut my hair.yeah its sort of short now,but i wanted it to be shorter but my dad wont allow me.so yeah.it was fun chit chatting at the salooon. well mall was so pack with people.i was kinda moody when i was in gadong. well i ran into some of my friends. and i even saw si azmi,its been ages ah.then we had to walk to go to escapade for sushi.dinner was nice,"free sushi.always good". well drop off cheeko and we came home past curfew and obviously my mom asked tons of questions.well overall it was an awesome day.

happy valentine's day everyone.

and thanks guys for everything.

and thanks khairi for the rose and the chocolate.

i love khairi.

just feel like updating

2009-02-13T02:11:00.000-08:00

i woke up early today cus the phone kept on ringing. so i had a heavy breakfast today,and i was so happy about it. so this morning i was told to go fr my tution at night,and i was kinda excited for it. my dad told me to clean the pool,which i dint do it. well it was kinda fun this morning.ooo and today i just felt like facebooking.

at lunch,out of nowhere i was all being a bitch.i was not in the mood. so yeah,and again they all keep on talking about my sister,how i should follow her foot steps and bla bla bla. i just dont like them talking about my sister the whole time cus it makes me sad as shes leaving soon. anyway,everything went back to normal,i watched the last holiday and it was awesome.well cerita lama pulang sudah tu. then i had to go for mengaji.

when wer all done,we had a high tea at home with my cousins and all.it was fun to have them around.well i really like it when mama is at our my place.ooo i just notice for the past few days,people keep on telling me some intresting stories which is a good thing.

well today is kinda fun eventhough i dint do much.and i uploaded tons of songs sudah.

oooh and thanks for the fake rose.its really practical!hahahah.thanks really,eventhough your one day in advance.

alright i think ill just stop here as i need to get ready for my tution.and yeay,abangs comming back karang i think.

-xoxo

my outings

2009-02-11T23:08:00.000-08:00

well, it was on tuesday that i went out with dorng nadh and syu. well at first we wanted to go shisha.but we couldnt find a place yang ada shisha patang. so we went to kiulap mall instead and had out high tea i guess. well it was funn catching up on things.i got some intresting stories.when it was nearly 5 something min and mamad came.which was more intresting and funner. plus min was so hyper that he talks alot.well he was tired thats why.

and i realize that day to accept people,even if they had change. well i know i dont think i can do that.

then when its time to go home i went and chill and nadhs place for awhile.then went home and notice my sister got a new laptop.which is weird.

oooh and lately i dont really like coming back home.well its not as bad as it sounds its just that,its so annoying when all the people talks about just my sister. i feel left out.so i just locked myself in the room and do my own thing.which is even more boring.

im gona miss loughbrough

2009-01-02T06:25:00.000-08:00

since wer going back soon. well tomorow will be the last day ill see the people in loughbrough. as ill be staying in london. anyway we have been hanging out like always now. its kinda sad, that im going back to brunei early. im not looking forward to it. how strange, this is so new. and im kinda scared to go to school. funney.

so i woke up super early today. cus i wanted to come along with my brother and parents to london, well i wanted to come along so badly. cus their packing stuff in the trunk and all. no seriously we take packing to the next level. its realy fun, well if my siblings are around lah. we tend to be amai and capi2.so when i finish showering my dad warn me and ask me to behave myself. ooh yes his treating me like a lil kid. then when i finish with my breakfast. my mom was like " janji, nda bulih kelaie and bising di kerita". well i can stand that. but i know my brother couldnt stand that. and my dad keep on reminding us, not to play around while packing. since they have to send the trunk today and they havent even finish packing. i mean they havent start on it yet. the last time we pack my parents was so stressed out. because we keeep on playing around.

but then it was tooo cold in the morning, probly because my hair wasnt dry yet. but i cant stand the weather so i decided to just stay at home,and just go to london by train with my sister later. so i decided to take a short nap. but me and my sister over slept. so we dint bother to go. we just went to town for awhile. then we wer so hungry so i cooked butter milk chicken. and for the first time it was a sucess. well the neighbour ate with us as well. so it was fun.

so i guess i have to wait for summer to see you guys back in brunei.

ill miss you people so much!

happy belated birthday ka bila
-i love khairi

i just waisted your time.

have fun waisting your time reading this

2008-12-31T03:48:00.000-08:00

since i have nothing much to do plus im kinda bored so might as well blog about the past 7 days.

on the 24th - i went to london, it was a long drive and we wer kinda lost at first. but it was fun listning to their convo. but it was kinda tiring. when i got to the house, i figure that fi was not there so called him and decided to watch them play football d hyde park.well i kinda miss him since its been 2 weeks or so since the last time we met. it was kinda boring at first as i have no friends since they all played football.so i played the bicycle. and i got carried away, i was having so much fun riding it. so when its time to go back home i was supose to go back home with my brother and fi. but my brother needs to go to brunei hall. so i went back with fifi. well he was being all mean and by saying all these crap about anivarsary thing. well it doest bother me that much tho. so when everyone was ready we went for dinner. and dinner was fun and nice i should say.

25th- it was christmas! so i woke up early, since eez and fi went back to brunei. so my parents went and drive them to the airport. sorry i dint came along. so we played football. well more like mengatam. but it was so much fun, then my parents bring us to show us around where they use to live and my dad show us where he use to go to this place staff college i guess. well it was fun. then we went to brunei hall to buy some food and pick my other brother. then went back home and chit chat till late night.

26th- boxing day. it wasnt that much fun this year but i got some presents. went to oxford street and went to selfridges, well the guys did most of the shoppings. it was not much of a fun day for me cus it was tooo crowded, and i dint get to buy stuff like the others did.it was a very tiring day.

27th - we went to westfield. it was much more funner then yesterday. i got some stuff for my friends and myself. it was much easier there since it was not that crowded, plus we wer free to go anywhere. so yeah. then we went to harrods that night. but as always it was so crowded. so went home and had dinner and watch some dvds.

28th - my parents went some where far. so we went out. i was kinda mad at my brother that day. well we went to brunei hall at first to drop off my sister. then i need to go to nike town to find some stuff. and my brothers girlfriend minta dgankan to go buy some shirts. so it was fun, i was still pissed at my brother. so we went and roam around regents street. then someone was beeing a bimbo that day, when we met chuck. then i had dinner with them. then i had to pick my sister up di brunei hall and then we went for dounuts while waiting for them. then i went back home.

29th - we went to harrods. we wer there for the whole day. it was kinda boring tho. nothing much happen. someone got stabed, lucky that i dint go there that day.

30th - my parents and sister went out without me. it wasnt that bad tho. i went to buy some stuff. and i manage to finish up eclipse that day. well when my brother got back home it was so freaky. we heard a gun shot that night. well i was that scared tho, but i got all curious about it. then when everyone was home i told them that me and my brother heard a gn shot. and they wer so freaked out. well they wer like "eh baik jua kau nda seorg saja di rumah ah". and then after dinner we went out and then go all the way back to loughbrough. my other brother doesnt wana come with us. he got his football i guess. i stayed up late watchng stuff on youtube.

today - i woke up late as i have a head ache. then drop off my mom to town. wen back home, took a shower, youtube, lime wire and watch some tv. im playing football later and theres a party. so it might be fun.

and for the whole week i was being all bitter. and i was really bringing alot of drama.

- i cant belive you waisted your time reading this.

happy new year. i dont care fi, you still have to pick me up, we have to meet up that day. i dont care if you have to skip school.

- i love you

i feel old and boring

2008-12-23T11:39:00.000-08:00

so i went to town yesterday and watched twilight. it was kinda disappointing as it was tooo fast and all over the place. but i still love that movie. ive been watchng it 3 times now, well i got nothing to do. but i still love the boook much more. so we played poker and wii last night. but i went to bed early this time i dont feel that good fr ths past few days.

today i dint go anywhere, well i was kinda bored as my prarents went off early to somewhere. and my brother and sister went out with the friends. well im not quite sure. well i was being such a drama queen. bida aku ah.

anyway ill be staying in london tommorow till the 30th i guess, well until everyone is satisfied with their shopping. somehow im not as excited as always. im not even really excited for boxing day and all. im not sure why im always bitter everyday, well it happens like almost every afternoon. how funney. guess im just a boring person who loves to be a drama queen lately.

wait im excited for the 25th. we always go to hyde park to play foot ball or something and thats it.

wow, im going back to brunei soon, time flys so fast, and i kinda have that feeling where i dont wana go back home. this is so new. oooh and theres just alot of drama now. we've been talking about it everyday.

anyway, happy advance Christmas and happy 6 months

i need an update i feel old.

i feel kinda bored waiting for them to come over. so i decided to blog

2008-12-20T04:36:00.000-08:00

i just got back from milan yesterday morning. well it was fun i should say, but it was raining like every single day. and when i was there i cried almost everyday, wich was pretty much annoying. its not something to be proud of tho, well when i want that stuff so badly i have to buy it. i kinda feel like im a geek now, everywhere i go i must bring along a book. well blame stephine meyer for that. i dint really buy much there. if you guys are planning to go to milan you should go to lake como, its really pretty but theres not much of a place to shop in lake como. well i had a blast at duomo and lake como. but too bad it was raining , well summer should be a good time to go there. cus if it is winter itll be cold,windy and i bet its gonna rain.

well enough about that, so yesterday, we wer so tired but i came up with a plan to play wii, before going to town for twillight. but then we tot it was gonna rain so we plan to take a nap but then i was busy unpacking while the others played wii. we end up staying at home for the whole day. we had a games night yesterday. we played poker, and i lost at first but i was getting good at it. we played katam, big 2 and wii. im so addicted to resident evil. its and old game but its freakin fun. we had shisha last night, we played games and shishaed di garden, sajuk2. well not really atleast i stop shisha-ing when i felt dizzy,unlike some people, hahah. nadawah.and yesterdays chating was fun. it was good letting it all out right? my holidays are getting much more fun-er. well they all stayed at our place. hang out till late night. oooo, and dinner was great.

today i woke up feeling so dizzy that i vomited. and i felt so cold, i had a running nose and i really feel sick again. well i got it from my siblings i guess. well mines worse, so the 3 of us decided to stay at home, well today adek had to go back to london for his football, i dont understand guys. well we are use to it, he always ditch us for football. so the house was a mess since we havent been cleaning up, plus they always come over. so we clean up the house and its like super clean. well it wont be long tho as they are comming over toninght. kinda miss you guys. and khaleed went back to brunei tadi what a bummer. he always brings the fun, well the neighbour are comming back karang. thats a good thing. well we went to sainsbury's for grocery, so my dad picked us up. and i got a box of ice cream, like i said i bet i gain alot of weight here. as i tend to eat much.

well my parents said we are going to manchaster tommorow to visit my cousin. i have been reading this book its really sad. i need a new book now.

- seriously i just waisted your time.
yeah you guys made my day.

my holiday so far

2008-12-11T02:26:00.000-08:00

i went to dubai for 4 days before going to uk. it was okay, well me,my sister and dad dint do much. we only get the chance to go out at night,wel expt fr the last day and the first day we wer there. cus we kinda need to wait for my mom, well its more like a business trip as my mom would call it. thats why. well every lunch time the 3 of us excluding my mom would go out and walk to kfc or hardees to buy some food. and yes i bet i gain alot of weight after eating that and ice cream everyday. and i tend to eat much. so yeah. well the last 2 days we wer there i was allowed to buy mainan for myself, and i was so happy after that. but i will always rember the last day we wer there when tears were slipping out of my eyes. i will always rember that restaurant when my dad wer on the phone. when im the last one to know everythng. im sorry,how i wish i would be in brunei that day.ill rember 07.12.08

it all turns out okay after that. so far both loughbrough and london is fun. i cant stop playing games or watch some tv. its fun as i get to hang out with my brothers. well its fun to be around them again as i miss them alot.so yeah.i just got myself a boots and jacket yesterday and i feel happy. well im so sick now as i dont have enough rest i guesss.

well im going to nottingham or derby tomorow. if my dad is not tired to drive that is. well im definetly going to london on saturday to watch the bsu winter games.

ill update as soon as possible.if im rajin enough and if im tottaly bored like now

- i just waisted you time
its khairi that i love.

happy birthday abg&adek. and happy belated birthday mir and arieef .

fun day.

2008-12-02T03:22:00.000-08:00

so i havent blog lately,well obviously. well im just tired and malas lately,as everytime i feel like blogging i always endup going online and chat till late night.no wait till early in the morning. i dont get to have enough sleep lately.but oh well it was fun staying up and chatting anyway.

well today i woke up late around 11 plus.so i was so panic as syaza said she's gonna come over at 11 but she came late as always.hahhaha.well when i gt out of the shower syaza was there already infonnt of my gate waiting.so we plan to meet up the boys around 1 plus,but wer not always punctual with the time so we end up meeting up nearly 2.

me and syaza was actually the fiirst one to come.so we waited for like batah so when khairi called, we came up the the stupid idea to go to centerpoint and roam around and obviously we did.so after sometime we feel kesian.so we went back to mall and then meet up khairi and senusi.so we roam around mall while waiting for danial.

when he came,we decided to go eat lunch and went to bridal cafe.since syaza wer not allowed to watch a movie so we decided to go bowling.its a last minute thing.so i called my driver like several time and ask him to pick us up.

after the guys werdone buying ice cream we went to the bowling place.and bowl.well it was so much fun.so we went back to mall and me and syaza waas craving for paddlepop so we had to walk to hua ho plus the zainals wanted to meet up the driver or something.then we had t go back home.

at home chit chat with syaza as always.okay i guess ill stop now as im too hungry to think plus im going out now.

well it sucks that rachelle couldnt come.oh well,my whole point is going out with the person you love is always fun right!

- i just waisted your time.
its khairi that i love so much

my weekends

2008-11-23T19:12:00.000-08:00

Friday- i went back home early in the morning from cheekos place as my driver was kinda busy that morning.i went back so early that i dint gt the chance to shower.okay ewww.why did i just tell you that.anyway i went straight to take my shower the moment i gt home. so i was kinda jobles that i sharpen all my colours and pencils.yeah how sad.had lunch then i picked up cheeko and went straight to my house.so i decided to clean up my room as its so messy,well its still messy tho. so i cooked for them dinner.so me and cheeko was busy youtubing and then i played some games wit my sister.after dinner i drop off cheeko.wow we actually wnt to her place 6 times in a day.so all the people was busy with the gala night thngy.reed invited us to his typical party.wich was dancing,bouncer and bbq.i dont wanna go ther actually since i know that my dad wont let me,but then i called my dad and he said okay so yeah.well it was so boring at first as i cant play the bouncerand i dont dance.plus it was raining heavily.so i stayed in the house and chit chat.then they invited me for a shisha so i actually shisha-ed while my sister was haing so much fun playing the bouncer.well the party wasnt so bad after alll.so i shished till i gt so dizzy wich was pretty stupid.yes so stupid.so i went home and sleep

saturday-so kaka arni woke me up.she text me wich was so random and annoying.so yeah she woke me up around 7.yeah that early so i took my shower.and youtubeing but i dint knw that she was waiting for us sudah.so i quickly chaange cus shes so scary when she gt so mad.so we wer wondering where shes gonna birng me and my sister for a "date" then we went back to her place and i was wondering my the 2 cats is comming with us.rupanya ia minta dgnkn bawa ke vet.wow how romantic for a date.so we waited for half an hour for our turn.so we wer so hungry that i wanted to eat at CAM. after that we went to rimba to drop off some stuff and sasat wah kami for almost an hour.then we went to the hospital wher i saw si fiz. then we went to to kiulap to get kema and myself and ice cream.so we went back home and i was so tired.so i chat with the boyfrend and watch tv.and thats pretty much it.ooo and had alil fight with my brother.we just gt out of the camp and he is so thin and dark now.well my parents wer supose to come back home today.but they dint.oh welll

sunday-so i was on the phone with khairi yet again.and i slept like so late.no wait so early in the morning.as i was busy watchng 90210.wich i only watch it half way for every episode.oh welll.so i skip my lunch and just took my shower as i was going to pick cheeko for our bowling outings.so yeah i took alot of pictures.when wer done playing bowling wich i won for the first time!haha.we went straight to soon lee to buy my ice cream but nada.so i went to plaza athirah but there was no ice creamm thr tooo.so we just went straight to easy way for our high tea.so yeah took alot of pictures here tooo.then i went to the shop next to easy way to buy my ice cream but nada.so i was still not happy as i want that ice cream so before droping off chekoo we went to atlanta and finnaly ada my ice cream.so i went back home and hang out with them kaka,che ezz and abg.then my brother ask me and my sister to get some food at mamih wich we did but it was embarasing.so went back home watch friends and it was so funney that i laugh so badly and my head hurts tooo.so i went for my sleep.wich i keeep on waking up every single hour.oh welll

seriously i just waisted your time telling you about my weekends
-i love khairi

my thursday.

2008-11-23T18:52:00.000-08:00

i went to school today,and we went to this place the biro place.on our way to that place theres this song palying on the radio called welcome to my paradise by steve & the coconut treez i think.or was it by this other guy.and then syaza keeps on singing.no wait shee hkeeps on singing only the "welcome to my paradise" pasal atu saja ia tau. then ivan starts to ing along.and then we started to laugh for no reason.well it was pretty boring tho at that place as we dint do anything but just sit.so we went back to school and chit chat.so rachel went back home with me well she was tired and sleepy i guess cus she cant sleep at the hostel for some reason so she took a nap.then i played cs then khairi called and he was kinda hyper.then i went back to school to drop off rachel.

so my sister was being so annoying cus she dont have school anymore.so i was too tired and i went to sleep.when i woke up khairi called yet again.so yeah was fun tho.then i hav nothing to do so i read my book and for the fist time i was kinda scared of reading it.i know lame!

so i took my shower and decided to go out for dinner as they wer all lazy too cook.so yeah,we picked cheeko and ajam too.so they all wanted to eat ambuya,so i just go with the flow plus i was craving for it.so i keep on reading twilight sampai habis,and i actually love it so much.thats like the first book that i actually finished and i dint stop half way like they all tot i would.

we decided to just sleep oover at cheekos place.so i played some games yet again until i gt tired.so i just stay up chit chating and thats pretty much it.

well it was kinda fun tho.
-i just waisted a time of your life

when my parents went off

2008-11-23T18:34:00.000-08:00

so my parents went to kl and its so boring now.so i decided to go to cheeko's house ass i was bored and i v nothing to do.i dint do much tho,well we watched this movie wich according to cheeko is so scary but it's so funney.i had fun laughing at her screaming and all. so we gt bored and i played some games.played winning eleven and this bowling game wich is so boring.so i played need speed for mostwanted wich is so fun.im liking this game for now eventho i suck at it.ooh and night club is fun tooo.

i wanted to buy some ice cream.so i ask cheeko to come long with me and jalan kaki to the shop.when we wer on our way ,there was this big scary dog.so we ran back home and it was so funney when cheeko almost fell bcus she was so scared.i love that kid.shes a joker.

so my sister pick me up after her tution.my sister was being an annoying geek.well that happens when she is having her exam soon.so i dint disturb her at all that day.

at home i watched friends and one tree hill.wich was fun cus its funney.

wel i had alil bit of fun that day.
i love khairi.

happy now cheeko?

i just wana let it all out

2008-11-16T21:59:00.000-08:00

so i woke up this morning and i feel like something is not right.i dont know why or what that made me feel this way.

i just want arieef around me to talk to me,i miss you.i just want to be around with rachelle and syaza and feel alright and fun.i just want to chat or text khairi like my usuals.i just want to love him like i usually do.i just wanna feel alright like the usuals.*sigh

my saturday!

2008-11-16T05:46:00.001-08:00

i almost forgot.one of the good times that you have to rember.

so i went to school.it was fun other than rachelle is so stressed out because of that guy.
we basically,just chit chat like the usual.so we went to the canteen to chill,senusi was ther too and his sister and the cousin. well khairi was not ther.obviously he was busy with waie.that lilttle chubby boy.and arif dint came to school on that day.

around 9 plus we went to my place.continue on cchit chatting.well i gt nothing to do so i read peoples blog.yeah,i dont have a life i guess.but i dont care! ooo and i forgot to mention that i pretend to be some other person and text that stupid guy.lets not go in detail

still chit chatting,and out of no where i wanted to play badil so we went outside and i played badil.well not much tho.

rachelle wanted to go for a swim,well maybe next time chelle. then i wana eat indomee goreng so badly.and syaza wana eat that too.ad she cooked for us.i know impresive kan?like syaza cooking?HAHAH.

after wer done eating,we continue on chit chatting about what will happen and all.and it hit me that it sucks that time flys so fast.and theres just too much of "what if"

well lets just hope that we will still be close and wer nnot gona be awkward around each other.
lets hope that wer still gonna be super weird and crazy.

-i just waisted your time
i love you guys.
xoxo.

okay im so sleepy,so screw it

my sunday!

2008-11-16T05:21:00.000-08:00

so i slept for 3 hours plus for today.(wow!thats alot)HAHAH. well i was on the phone this morning and i went to sleep around 6 i guess.

man u won,alright!the score was 5-0.so yeah i had so much fun with ajam this morning.we actually disturb cheeko when she was asleep.we put tons of powder on her hair and lotion on her face and everywhere.well we did that cus we wana wake her up but shes such a heavy sleeper.

then ajam fell asleep.so i was bored as i cant sleep.so i watch man u pla and friends to keep myself entertain.then khairi called.and he hang up for like 4 times.well actually blame his phone.nadawah.

i went straight to bed and sleep.

8 plus.cheeko and ajam was being so chlidish,they keep on going in and out of my room and they even slam the door.so i woke up and chit chat.cheeko went home earlier than ajam.
watched some cool free kicks with ajam but then he got bored so he went home tooo.

so my usuals,chit chat with my sister and we would wach csi supreme sunday together.wich is kinda boring as its balik2.but its csi's its a must see tv show.we went out at 3 with my parents.

went to gadong to buy all my brothers food and stuff.then we went to the camp.
chit chat with them al.nothing much happen.ooo i might be going to kl with my parents,if my aunt is not comming that is.well its just gonna be a short trip tho.as my mom need to do something with the house.

went back home.watch tv,twilight,chatting,mailling and music.pretty much boring,well thats just who i am.a boring person.okay im just so sleepy okay

-i just waisted your time.
i love khairi

im bored and im sick

2008-11-10T17:58:00.000-08:00

so im extremly bored and sick.i have a headache since sunday night.well i tot it was just my normal headache.so i went to bed straight away hoping that i will feel alright the next day.so whe i woke u the next day.i feel so dizzy and it makes me not gonna go to school.but i have to since i have my last 2 papers.

so went to school,i seriously feel sick.but its weird whenever im around with rachelle and syaza i feel okay.anyway,my papers was kinda hard.so yeah.nothing much happen in school.just the usuals chit chat,ooo and i slept in class and it was a good one too but thanks to tht teacher who woke me up.

so went back home.i feel so tired and cold.and i dont feel like doing anything ut just to lay down.so my head hurts so badly so i tried to go to sleep but i cant.so i watch tv and text my boyfirend.yeap i was still lying down cus thts pretty much i can do.as i feel like so dizzy when i stand and walk.then finnaly i fell asleep.i text my brother that dont feel good and he called then i fell asleep again.

at night i went to the clinic as my teperature was kinda high.so got home lay down and watch tv for hours untill i fell asleep.oooo and im liking the movie mama mia.its like i have to watch in everyday.

so obvsly i dint go to school today.and i woke up so early at 6 cus i dnt feel good.and i still feel dizzy so i went to the toilet and next thing you know i vomited.okay eww i dont know why i just type that.but its good to vomit i gues.as i feel alil bit better after that.anyway i took my medcine and pain killer and i feel alot more better.

so im so hungry by now,but i dont feel like eating.the only thing i ate since yesterday was alil bit of rice and some soup wich is tasteless and some oatmeal wich is also tasteless.and i drank alot of tea and milo wich makes me feel good.

so my temperature is still high.and i feel so cold.im stuck at home feeling extremly bored!so i hope ill get better soon.
-i just waisted your time telling you about how i feel.
i love khairi

yesterday

2008-11-08T23:28:00.000-08:00

so yesterday.i kinda hate my poa paper cus my balance sheet nda balance!and dint hang out with rachelle yesterday.

first thing i notce when i gt home was my other car was not in the garage so i asked my dad where did it go and my brother used it.and i was smiling to myself and called my brother.he gt off frm the camp for a day but then he went out with the other me(her fiance).so dint talk with him much.

then my mom ask me to come along for lunch and tutong.so i went to gadong for my lunch/high tea with my aunt.so yeah,we wer stuck at that place for 2 hours plus.its always been like that.after that we went to tutong to get the durian,then went to the market to buy some stuff and it was so hot.yes i sweat like a pig.i dont really know if a pig sweats.but yeah.

night i went to the charity dinner thngy.i dont wana go actually but my mom gt th ticket sudah.so i gave the ticket to my cousin,and she ask me to come along.so im back to square one.i pick my cousins.

when we gt to empire.i was like "eh agtah kamu turun,baju ku bida." and obvisly i would go fr the dinner thngy.so yeah there was alot of amazing performance i should say.

but i was tired and sleepy at that time.wich leads to, me being incredibly lame.
i came up with alot of jokes.and i decided to ask ajam about all the jokes
me:"jam kenapa nada dinousar(i dnt knw how to spell it) nada lagi?"
ajam:"pasal ultramen bunuh,balik2 jua eh soalan ah"
me:"bah,i bet you dont know this.if superman,batman and spiderman kan ke miri on school holiday,siapa yang lambat sampai?"
ajam:"siapa saja kausnul mau"
me:"salah,batman pasal ia pakai kerita and then ada trafic jam.yatah ia akhir sampai"
ajam:"lame banar!"
and banyak lagi lah.i dont want you guys to think that im super lame.okay im crappy.ooo theres this funney joke about 2 guys.but i dont wana type it down.

so we chit chat about funney stuff.and this kid is growing up.he fell inlove awwwwww.brtau bungsu biarkan kau.hahha.nadawah ill keep it to myself.

so after sometime you know puteri the bruneian singer.shes kinda good but im just indenial

so i asked ajam when puteri sang if i aint got you by alicia keys
i said "jam ia ani kan sama sudah macam alicia keys"
ajam"*giving the weird look*tapi?"
me:"ia pakai tudung.awu wah im lame.im just so sleepy."

and i won a ticket to vietnam for the lucy draw.it was my ticket but then i ask cheeko to get it at the stage.so i figure since its her birthday and i gave the ticket to her.

and suprisingly i knew that i was gona win the ticket and said "cheko get ready.kami tu punya" and it came true.well it was pretty weird that night as what i predict came out.

went home and i feel something wich is missing,as they all left me alone.so i watched something that could cheer me up.so yeah

alright finaly.thrs no more final exam.well expt for the 2 paper 1s.
-i just waisted your time reading this

yes bang,i gave the ticket.get over it,it was free anyway.

yesterday

2008-11-03T02:30:00.000-08:00

it was a sunny sunday!my dad woke me up at 7 plus,wich is so early as we wer going to my cousins wedding.i was very tired and sleepy cus i went to bed late.

gt my hair done and my sister.and for the first time i did it by myself.thanks to me ka!your hair is so lawa on you.so we meet up at 10 plus.wich is pretty late.and i did my cousins make up done too.

so yeah it was a busy and tiring day i should say.but i had fun!

great stories,funney and silly little things happpen.oh and i frgot the most embarassing thing happen.i was walking with my cousin to get something from her car.and she park the car so far away from the house.so my cousin was walking on the grass and gt her heels stuck and for some reason she grabs my hand and we both fell.and i had to change my baju kurong as it was all dirty.and obvilsy people would be staring and ask alot of question kan.well its a you shouldve been there situation.

went to kayu after the wedding.gt back home i was really tired that i wanted to go to sleep.so i called my brother then i figure i should not waste my time sleeping.so i went to my room and start stuying.dint do much tho.

at night.still studying,dinner,study and i was alone at home as they all went to the wedding thingy.then i watch tv.then went to sleep.

bah.ill do the whole stuff lagi sudah aku habis exam ku.i really should be studying now.

told you i dont have a life

2008-11-01T09:13:00.000-07:00

i decided to repair my own simcard since i got nothing to do other then history.i got it right at first,but then i change it to my other phone and i cant switch the phone with the simcard.so im back to square one.boring,i cant study.nothing goes in.oh well!

you guys might think that i seriously dont have a life but actually i do.its just that im so bored waiting in vain for my brother to call.so might as well blog.

ooo the thing i love about today was durian for dinner!the food that i crave for dri masa atu.finally.

mom and dad is still out,i cant find my sister.so yeah!pretty much boring.

same old boring life.if i have my phone i would be calling someone.and i could even call my sister to go to my room,so i dont have to walk to her room.

my god!i dont have a life.and yeay!my skype is working now,
im feeling like december.emm..bah

-happy birthday bang! i now how you wish you would be back here in brunei and eat durian and would go durian hunting with abg den and all.
i bet your giving me that weird look.anyway happy birthday,i love you and miss you alot.

im bored

2008-11-01T07:57:00.000-07:00

so,my simcard is acting up on me again.i cant switch any phone with that simcard.i asked my mom to do something about it as always.but for the first time she said "im late,kau nda jua mau ikut arah aunty g".usually she never cares if shes late or not.so yeah i have to wait till tomorrow or later to get my simcard done.well if its not working no more,i gues i have to bring it to dst after my exams then.

well it bothers me at first but i guess ill be fine without it.plus in that way i can study.no phone,no tv.seriously im liking this for now.

i just notce that i dont have a life when i dont have my phone and i tend to blog or reads peoples blog.seriously i dont have a life!i guess ill be like this till i gt my line back or not.

ill be a geek for now,i wana study my history now.well if i can.

i kinda like today,not the english papers part.but yeah.i had fun tonight,lil kids,gossip with my cousins,and badil!

serously i dont know whats going on with me.im getting crapy-er and lame-er my the sec.
emmm...bah.

-i just waisted your time telling you about my simcard.

i just feel like blogging

2008-11-01T02:19:00.000-07:00

so i have been so busy lately with my exams,my cousins and my upcoming December.

i notice that i don't even really have the time to do my usuals.like texting my boyfriend,walk to my cousins or even chit chat with my sister everyday at 5,and i dint even call my brother.*sigh

i dont know whats wrong with me,but everytime i gt back from school i always feel so tired and sleepy.and obviously i would go straight to bed.

so it hit me and i realize how i miss the old days.the old you. and out of all things i realize something about you!yeah you,you always wants it your way.you cant even think about how i feel.i guess they are all the same.

no tv.no phone.not even online.im really in the mood for studying and blogging.
i love khairi
-i just waisted your time reading all this,yeah including this line.omg!im so crappy

school was great

2008-10-20T07:45:00.000-07:00

my sister woke me up,as my alarm is getting stupid-er every single day.so took my shower and gt ready fr school.

7.05 went to md,and my sister was so annoying and was being allil bit bitchy in the car,well i dnt blame her.shes just so scared of the exam i guess.well i said "dont take it on me.good luck" and i tot she was gonna say thank you but noo.she gave me the bitchy look instead.

arrived at school around 720.late,as usual.had geo chit chat with rachlle.then next thing you know its time for poa,but we had maths instead.it was fine,chit chat and i manage to understand and do my work.i was kinda sleepy at that time,and i was yawning like a thousand times.okay im just exgerating.after 2 periods of maths it was english,and was kinda boring.

the first thing me and rachelle did was being us,you know!just to brighten up the day.then it was break time.the usuals happen,gossiping and all.we planned to skip econs but we went to econs anyway.

the last 4 periods was fun.so syaza,ivan and me had our fun and sad convo.theres just to many "what ifs here".where it hit me that its gona be so diffrent without syaza next year,how its gonna be so dull and its not gona be fun as always.in other words im so gonna miss her and its not gonna be the same without her.

geo.yeap stil theres tons of "what ifs" you know weve been doing this since saturdaay.seriously i cant imagine that shes gona leave soon.sometimes im still indenial about the fact that shes moving.and hopping that shes just gonna stay.and still hpping till now.cus its seriosly gonna be diffrent.poa and econs will not be fun.i can stand not having her every histy class.but fr now i dnt think i can stand not being with syaza or rachelle.atleast i have to see them like almost everysingle day.

wow!i sound so gay.but yeah.cause i dont want to slip you guys out of my life.
yes.2008 is one of the best year.i dont think next year will be the same as syazas moving,i guess.and olevels,and kaka and fifah is going to uk.

i guess everyone leaves.
-i just waiste your time.
i love my bestest friends and khairi

it was fun!

2008-10-18T10:47:00.000-07:00

today was so fun spending times hari raya-ing with syaza,khairi,senusi,danial and arif.well it was a bummer that rachelle couldnt come with us,seriously it would be more fun-er if she was there tooo.

for me,its the best hari raya.

so i went to syazas place around 9 plus in the morining,then we were suppose to meet up with th guys at easyway at 1030.you know how wer not punctual and all,so we came around 11.sorry to keep you guys waiting.eventho as much as we waste so much time,but yeah it was all worth it.

syaza made this suprise birthday cake thingy for th birthday boys wich was sweet.went to mums bakery,sifana where we dared senusi to go and sit on this motorcyle and it was kinda funney.and obvisly he did,cus his senusi.then we went to syazas place like 3 times i guess.and i played with senusis eye and its really fun.

then we went to my place.nothing intresting happen here just chit chat and eat.then we went to the mosque.then we went to teacher mawars house and we had fun.well i really feel awkward with some of the convo.but it was fun lah.

went to hafizzuden house,dint stay there batah.but yeah then we went to the mosque where me and arif was talking about alot of stuff.yes alot!its been awhile since we had this kinda of talk.then we went all the way to subuk(however you spell it) on the way to nabils house something funney happen.and we dint stay there for long as wer gona go to syazas place again.

in the car i practice to call my mom to ask wether i could go out lagi till late lah since wer gona go to the guys place lagi.omg!thats like so lame that i did that.but yeah i always do that anyway.which at first i tot she wouldnt let me since i went out from pagi.

on the way to syazas place,me and syaza was so scared to asked if we could go out,and it was a relief that we were allowed.

had fun at her place,we ate our dinner,chit chat and they played with the glass thngy wich is so annoying.wel i find it intresting tho but annoying.had alot of great stories like about her maid and all.and more.

then we went to arifs house wich is somewhere near lumapas.or not.wait,we had to stop at the shell and the toilet is not really clean.i dont know why i just type that.at arifs placethe guys played snooker and the game.oo and i played it too,well not really.i was being kinda amai with his stuff.suri!hahha.okay no.and we ate,surri rif as i dint finish eating up my food.

then we had to go off since we have to go to danials place.went there sekjp sja since its already late.ooo and danial is sooo excited to go to labuan.him and labuan.

then we had to go back and drop off the 2 brothers.we had this talk about intresting stuff.it was already 1040 when we drop them off.

me and syaza was so scared to go back home to face our parents.and it made me nt wana go back home.but everythng turns out okay.my mom even thinks that i was gona come back home like even late.and she gave me that look and ask me to go to my unlces house.i dint wana argue with her so i have to come along.well she did say something about its not nice going out till late.

its boring that it ends like so fast.we had so much fun in the car and ppls houses.
had so much intrestng stories.

what im tryng to say is going out with the people you love is always fun right?
it was a blast.seriously it was the best raya.and thanks guys fr everything.
ooo and we wer eating like non stop.i guess thats just something special about hari raya.

okay ill stop here since im so sleepy.ill just edit everything tomorow.
-i just waisted you time telling you all this

its all good

2008-10-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

i have a boyfriend now.well dari dulu pulang sudah.well i know this sounds stupid but i dont care for now what we are.i dont care if wer friends or boyfriend&girlfriend cus thats not gona change the fact that i love you.so yeah.but its all good.oo and im sorry for everything,i guess

-i just waisted your time.

bored

2008-10-11T10:02:00.000-07:00

im kinda bored.so i feel like blogging about my boring life.

so im not sure whats my status right now?okay that sounds wrong.
well im not sure what i am to you now,i think wer just friends for now.and i dont know when "for now" will end.well he text me bysaying "maybe we shoud just be friends till the final year exam" but then he called me his girlfriend like few minutes after that.so im really confuse.i guess were friends with benefits or maybe wer still together.since we still say all those "i love yous" but like i said im not sure.maybe he wants it this way you know being friends.
i feel like i gt dump.hahah.nadawah.well i dont know.
its kinda funey,cus i dint react like how i tot i would.well its all complicated i can say,and all i know im not even sure what we are now.

i have no life doing this.
-i just waisted your time

random post,yet again

2008-10-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

someones getting older.happy advance birthday dul.1 day to go and your 18.
super 18.i know i said ill lanja you shisha,but im kinda busy ths days plus im broke sinceits 30 dollars now fr a shisha,when you gt you driving licens i promise to lanja you shisha and you should drive me around and we can go jerudong whenver you feel like it.but its kinda lama lagi since we both have exams coming up.

okay,today woke up late as usual,since i wnet to bed late and thrs no school.my dad woke me up more like he scolded me.first thing i did was text my boyfriend? then i had to go out with my mom.

we went for grocery shopping yet again,cus we tend to eat that much.HAHAH.*inside joke.anyway we bump into my moms friend whos is such a big show of,well shes very nice its just that she likes to show off her stuff.so we shop around together and pay all th stuff,well she was at th next counter.when i put all the stuff back into the trolley she said this to us "buying grocey sudah berapa?banayak bah belanja bali barang ani" then i gave her the weird look,more llike a bitchy look.and my mom said "memanglah,dari dulu jua sudah org belaja sampai banayak"

so i was similing to myself,saying to myself "i knw another persn whos like this,obviously we have to pa alot for food stuff "

okay,i just feel like typing it out.

so i went out with my driver to pick up my sister and dad.then took a short nap.had dinner.and back to the texting th boyfiend
-i just waisted your time

i love survey

2008-10-07T10:18:00.000-07:00

[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to?

. since i have a boyfrend,i guess not.

[02] Have you ever been given roses?

. yeah,from a bestfriend

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

. i got tons.maybe a walk to rember

[04] Had a Long Distance Relationship?

. no.its not working for me i guess

[05] Do you believe in this saying-What goes around comes around?

. yes i do.look what happen.

[06] Do you want to get married?

. not now i dont

[07] How many kids do you want to have?

. i dont know.im too young to think about that

[08] Whats your favorite color(s)?

black and white.hahha.emo!i dont have any i guess

[09] Who was the last person you held hands with?

. arieef,when he ...hahha.or maybe my lil cousins

[10] Do you believe in love at first sight?

.i guess not

[11] Would you kiss the last person

you kissed again?

. yeah,cus its my dad?

[12] At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?

. too young

[13] Do you like anyone?

. yeah,alot

[14] Do you know someone who likes you?

. you,cus if not, you wouldnt botherwasting your time to read this.

[15] Do you love anyone?

. YEAP!happily inlove.okay ewww

[16] Do they know you like/love them?

. yeah.i told him like a thosand times

[17] Why did you and your most recent ex break up?

. cus his a bitch.nadawah.were better off being friends

[18]Did you two last speak to one another?

. huh?speak properly please

19] Would you get back together with your ex?

. lets just say i happily inlove now.okay i cant belive i just said that.so no

[20] What comes to your mind when you think of love?

. smile myself silly and ill be fine

[21] Is there anyone who knows you inside and out?

. i gues not.even i dont know

im bored yet again

2008-10-07T01:07:00.001-07:00

Is it OK if you kiss people on the cheeks when you're single?

- yeah,i guess so even if your not

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?

- asleep

How's your heart lately?

- broken.hahaha.my heart is happy.

Last inbox message from?

- khairi

Who was at your house last?

-my moms friend

Do you like to cuddle?

- i dont know

Are you a heavy sleeper?

- yes i am

When was the last time something bothered you?

- last night.as my simcard was being a bitch

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?

- i hope so.

Do you like country music?

- some

Are looks important?

- maybeee

Are you mad at someone right now?

- i dont know

Do you believe in love?

- fr now i do

Who was the last person you talked to?

- khairi or my brother

Will you get married?

- i guess

Are you happy with yourself?

- yes.

Does anyone like you?

- lets hope so.

What were you doing 2 hours ago?

-texting

Do you wear the seat belt in the car?

- if im sitting in th front seat

Are you hanging out with anyone tonight?

- i dont know.i might

Ever kissed an ex after you broke up?

- i dont think so

Kissed someone with a gf/bf?

- not something to be proud of

How has this past week been for you?

- tirig,but so far so good

Do you get bored of your girlfriend/boyfriend easily?

- hahah.lets just skip that

Are you the type that would rather stay at other peoples houses or have them staying at your place?

- i dont care.

Did you date anyone this past spring?

- when is that exactly?

Do you know anyone whose name starts with a R?

- yeah my dad

Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?

- haha,yes wichwas pretty embarsing

When is the last time you touched drum sticks?

- few months ago

Can you play any instruments?

- yes,kinda

Have you ever kissed someone in the rain?

- no

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but you can't?

- yeah,like alot

How many TRUE best friends do you have?

- im to tired to count

Where is the person you fancy right now?

- somewhere

Last place you've been beside your house?

- where else in brunei

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

- music and chatting

When was the last time you felt like punching someone?

- wheneve i feel like it

Have you ever been around someone who was high/drunk?

- yes

Do you like your life as of now?

- yeah.its preety good

Where are you right now and how do you feel about where you are?

- at home.i feel safe and lonely.HAHA

What do you want?

- all the person i love.and my money back

Are you a jealous person?

- at times

Are you tired right now?

- yes.

Is your hair naturally curly?

- no

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?

- no,ill be very sick if i do tht

Do you have any siblings?

- yes,i do

What are you scared of?

- alot of stuff

Do you curse a lot?

- yes i do,wich pretty suck

What are you excited for?

-final year exam,so i can skip school?

The person you wan to hug right now?
-alot.

im bored.

2008-10-07T00:32:00.000-07:00

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?

- yes,it matters alot

2. How about drinking?

- yes.

3. Do you want someone you can't have?

- nope.i can always have them.HAHA

4. If someone liked you right now,

would you want them to tell you?

- i dont know.

5. What's your favorite sport?

- BOWLING.yea right.swimming i guess

6. It's Saturday night, you're home

alone.. what do you do?

- chatting or watch some dvds

7. Can you do the splits?

- nope

8. Do you like roller coasters?

- yes!

9. When's the perfect time to have a

bf/gf?

- whenever you feel like it

10. If you could date any celebrity,

who would it be?

- adam brody?or christiano ronaldo

11. What's your favorite band?

- nada

12. What are you doing this weekend?

- hari raya-ing?

13. Do you usually fall for the right

or wrong girl/boy?

- right, for now.

14. Have you ever hugged someone?

- ofcors.duh

15. Ever kissed someone you weren't

attracted to?

- hahha

16. Do you like anyone right now?

- i like alot of people.

17. Which do you prefer, beach or the

mountains?

- beach.

18. Computer or laptop?

- laptop

19. Jeans or sweats?

- jeans.

20. Which year has been the best so

far?

- early this year

21. How old are you gonna be on your

next birthday?

- 17.omg im old

22. What should you be doing right now?

- studying

23. Are you attracted to girls/boy

that smoke?

- nope.unless their supper nice

24. Have you ever fallen on your butt

in front of a crowd of people?

- yeah

25. What do you do when you're at home?

- youtube and texting

26. Whats your favorite subjects?

- any science subject?

27. What's the best thing that happened

to you?

- to wake up to the person you love?

another random post

2008-10-06T10:12:00.001-07:00

Sometimes things don’t turn out that well, and sometimes it really sucks if they don’t. So when that stuff happen to me, I try my best not to be involved so I wont get affected. So I just shut up and listen to songs and figure what I did and I try to make things work and better.

I know lately I’m being alil bit bitchy sometimes. Which is pretty sucks and not cool at all.

I know I have been kinda mean to almost everyone I think I’m just too busy and exhausted which made me a bitch. Like my cousin said, I’m just not being myself right now. To be honest I don’t really believe in that.HAHAH.

I know how I always argue with people. One in particular, which is khairi.i realize how I treat him in a very mean way, which I know that I shouldn’t be treating him this way. What’s worse is I don’t even know what the reason behind all this, is it me or him? I’m not even sure if it’s something he did or said. or maybe I’m just mad at myself for all this but really I don’t know why.

Sometimes I feel like almost all the people I love so much are slipping out of my life, wich I don’t want that to happen, well maybe without noticing it maybe we are actually. So I put all the things back together and be the person we use to be again.

Hopping by the end of the day that everything is fine and back to its places, knowing that it was worth doing it all.

I just wasted you time

look whos talking now.

2008-10-06T10:08:00.000-07:00

I learn a valuable lesson today, I was so shock that I can hear everything what my parents told us, since im kinda deaf. Since me and my sister are the only one who’s around, so we almost do everything together with my parents all. You know family bonding. Okay that’s nothing new and that’s nothing to be proud off since I guess almost everyone bonds with their family. Like who doesn’t? I shouldn’t really be typing that since everyone do all that but I wana make this post longer. So my mom randomly talked about money and all. I learned that we shouldn’t talk about money, even if you have that much of amount, even if your super rich cause people will eventually know that you have that money even if you don’t tell them. Maybe that’s just how they roll. And I came across where people always show off everything they got, like a fancy car, branded items and all.(like I said im just tryna make this post longer and boring.)I read from a book where they say we shouldn’t do all this cause god can take all those stuff in just a blink of an eye. Its all karma baby. okay eww.but yeah its true.

I know I should be sleeping right now since im not feeling that well. But I’m just not that sleepy. Well I’m use to it sudah like I always go to sleep around 1-4. Well if its weekend ill go to sleep around five yeah with a capital F-I-V-E which is not healthy and not cool at all. I miss the time where me, syaza and rachelle hang out together like almost for the whole day. i rember we went to her house and went back around 12 plus. That was fun. Good old times. well that’s not new to us since we wana enjoy our life being a teenager since life is to short and we try to enjoy it every second, cause when were old nanti we don’t wana regret by saying “you know what, we should’ve done that when we were younger ”

And I learn that we should be thankful for everything. I saw a person shopping badi works like crazy, buying all that was just a waste of money.(wow! Look whos talking) but its true,its like seeing all your money burns into ashes like my mom would say it.where I came to a point and made me realize, how a lucky bruneians are, but still their not happy with their life, some still not satisfied with what they have now.they’re not happy with what food they ate,some just threw all those foods just like that.some even buy some uneccesary things, jgantah membazir,syukur tah.

Who am I to judge?well I kinda so all those stuff too but theres a limit.but yeah im trying to put a stop on it.

-I just waste a time of your life and I know you guys are gona give me the weird look (you know who you are) while reading this.

My simcard sucks.i don’t know what happen and now I can recive a text or call anyone ill try to get it fix later in th morning.

I love khairi
xoxo

i just realize how weird and random this post is,i think its the medcine.

it sucks.and i miss you guys

2008-09-27T13:42:00.000-07:00

so i dint sleep for the whole night yet again.well i plan to go to sleep tdi,but then i just got a text from my brother and ask me to go skype.so i did,but i then i was waiting in vain.HAHAH.after an hour of waiting baruth ada.so talked like we always do.then when hang up my other brother calls well i dint talk much as we wer both busy with our own stuff.

chat with my 2 cousins and they wer showing off about their tour to old trafford.bitch much,cheeko you dnt even like man u.good thing you bought me something.mun nda ill hate you fr the rest of my life as you wer being an anoying girl who keeps on saying this "told you,but you dont wana listen.i told you to stay with us,but noooo you went back to brunei instead"

i guess people ths days,they just wana mess up with your minds and play a lil bit of game.are you trying to pay back?bring it,i guess i deserve it anyway.HAHA

"if thats the way you play it,well bring it.cus ill play it even better."

i cant sleep,and im bored

2008-09-27T12:12:00.000-07:00

i got nothing to do and im the only one whos wide awake so might as well blog.

ive been very busy lately since raya is coming up soon.since i got back frm my uk i always stay up for the whole night and sleep in th morning.

hows puasa treating me?well its fine so far since i spend alot of time with my family.and thres just alot of family gatherings,wich means that i can hang out with my oh so bestest cousins and gossip.too bad ramadhan is almost over.

i think raya's gona be boring since my 2 brothers nada,and we wont be going out that much.i dont realy think goinng to tutong this year is gona be that fun,and this is gona be the first raya without nene.how sad,i miss her so much.and what makes raya boring is becus most of my cousins is not in brunei.should have just stayed in uk with my aunts,but then ill miss all the people way back in brunei.

its been 3 days straight that im on the phone with khairi,since i cant sleep at night time and for every phone call we made,we always argue over some silly stuff.wich is kinda funney and stupid at times.

i bet later its gona be fun i hope but then i have to wake up in the mornin to go to tutong to pick my baju kurong.then i have to help to move around the furniture and clean the house.thats fun,seriously!you know family bonding.HAHAH.then i have to go to kubur and maybe out fr sungkai with all the families.

i have a new maid and shes so funney.and i notice lately i dont feel like texting people maybe its becus im just to tired or im just tooo lazy.oh well

i miss all the people in uk and my bestest friends and KHAIRI

i just wasted you time telling you all this.

- its khairi that i love.

my days without you guys

2008-09-24T11:59:00.000-07:00

like i said i just got back from my "holiday".well i was away for 12 days pulang saja,i think but it feels like ages!i still cant go to sleep.jetlagged i guess.

i really miss khairi when i was away.you know since we dint chat or text or whatever.pokoknya nada contact.okay thats weird.

when i was away i really wanted to go online like so badly and i wan check peoples blog you know since syaza always text me about ppl blog but sadly i cant.where i live,the conection sucks big times.

i really wanted to tell him on how much i miss him and LOVE him.ahhah.well i did text but no reply,i wasnt expecting a reply tho knowing already that he wont reply.long story.but atleast i still can tet with syaza.thats a good thing,texting with her realy helps to make your day brighter.okay i sound so gay.hahha.but yeah

i really miss all the people wa back in brunei.and my dad alwas calls me like 24-7.okay im jus exagerating but he calls everyday saying that he misses me.but yeah no offence but i miss my sibs more,i thnk its becus im use to it sudah.you know my parents being away,yeah im use to that udah since i was a lil kid.but i just cant stand not being with my sibs.

well i really misses my bestfriend,boyfriend,dad,sibs you name it.omg i cant imagine going there december for the whole month.lagi tah.but yeahhh,whatever

yeay brunei!

2008-09-24T11:35:00.000-07:00

i just got back like 2 days ago i think and i realy dont feel like bloging and i planned to stop blogging,but yeah the boyfirend asked me to blog about my boring life.okay,im just gona make it short as its already late and i have a boyfriend to chat with.

syaza came to my place today,i was very sleepy and tired that time as i dint sleep for the whole night.but was glad that she came as i miss her alot and you know we need to update and gossip.and i told her about that weiirdest,yuckiest dream of my you know and she gt the same imperssion about it too.then she had to go back home and then i took my phone and reply khairi's msg and he was moody,i dont know why.i dnt wana get affected,you know being moody too so i took my nap as i was so tired.hey dont get me wrong,you know that feeling when someone is moody youll get moody too.you know!

my mom wokee me up and i gt lectured since i havent showerd and all.and then gt ready and went straight away to the airport to send my oh so bestest friend.my brother that is.hugged my brother and cried.he said this to me and made me cry even more "cry nel,cry.nda jua papa tu,december jumpa lagi.and ill miss you and i love you"

went back home,and my mom and aunt was so bissing in the car,well its really funey tho.went back home and continue gossipping with my cusin.banyak dosa aku buat.played badil for sekajap then msging with my boyfriend.and here i am chatting and blogging

happy 3 months i guess
-i love khairi.and i miss rachelle
nadh happy 15 months.

a conversation

2008-09-10T21:58:00.000-07:00

im at syazas tution place now,and theres this twins we know from there jua, aziz and azri.
we were being random when suddely aziz ask us this
aziz: "do you guys like to take a pictures of yourself?"
me & syaza: "mestilah,were girls kali ah.kenapa?dont you?
aziz: "ndalah!"
me & syaza: "memanglah cus your a guy."
azra: "uhh,babi what does that made me?a gay?"
me,syaza and aziz :"HAHAHAH"

it was so funney considering that azri is the only guy who takes tons of pictures of him self kalah perempuan.HAHA.nadawah zri jangan kau marah.we still love you eventhough your sometimes a gay when you take a pictures of yourself.

im so gona MISS my oh so favorite best twins when im flying off later.

twins you guys better text me up everyday mun nda kami putus.*inside joke* and that goes to syaza tooo.

-sharki is out.

i love you boyfriend!

-xoxo

i did this for you

2008-09-10T04:33:00.000-07:00

so like i said ill continue on blogging.i said earlier that school was great.wait,im not trying to be mean or something but yeah i have to let it out.everyday i ALWAYS smell this very funney smell that i cant stand it wich always gve me a major headache.okay im just exagerating.but its true,you dont belive me?well siapa jua tahan?wait ada org tahan cus their just imune to that smell sudah.

i have a funney friends,who is living up a fairy tale life,they even have their own fairy tale friends.HAHA.you know who you are.nadawah.

i realize that everyone is using the word "much" these days. I think its the season.but i know that i dont use it no more,or maybe i doo but sometimes cus thats not how i roll.=p

my aunt just got me a bracelet and i bet "its mahal tu".HAHA.okay i seriously need to stop.

so i better get going now as i have a boyfriend to chat too and i need to pack for tomorrow

PAPAI everyone.

i hate goodbyes?does papai counts?

khairi its you that i love so much.

it starts with an A

2008-09-09T22:21:00.000-07:00

school was great,but i really miss rachelle and im flying off tomorrow.how boring.

yesterday i went to a jewelery shop with them zainul and all.they wanted to buy me this necklace but i know it was expensive and i know they were joking around so i just went away.for that small piece of neclace it cost like a thousand plus but it was pretty tho.ill just ask my mom to buy me that necklace.it was so funney when zainul said this to the sales person "ni kan balikan c alai ah" and the sales person thot that he was being serious.oh welll

OMG!i just realize that im turning into those people.i dont have a life now.

okay im gona take a nap,then watch gossip girl.soo ill continue on blogging later probly at night.

so papai for now and im still thinking of a pet name for someone.

ps:- i miss where me,syaza and rachelle would spend almost the whole day together.

"theres just something special about you that i love so much"

a start without you?

2008-09-09T05:30:00.000-07:00

so i just got back.and i was glad that i went out with nadh and all.i was supose to go to my uncles place but they went without me.

i was very happy that i went out today as i have updated myself with some stories and all.however it came to a point where he told me almost everything and i was all moody tarus.i realize that i always trust people eventhough sometimes i know in my heart that they cant be trusted.oh well thats just who i am.

and im gona start a life without you,its over between us,i dont thinkwe can be the same as before.with you its always the same cus your never gona change eventhough you told me like a milion times on how your trying your best to change.i guess its true that people never change cus its easier that way.you always bring up all the stupid stuff we have done and you always blame me for it.maybe if your ever gona change maybe we could be better but so far i think its imposible as your just sitting there without doing a thing about it.and whats worse is i have to know this from other people.oh common!-you know who you are

hey does this ring a bell "we better teach that girl a lesson".but i think ill pass

"youre better off without them"-iuBHI

im gona quote something everyday

2008-09-08T06:08:00.000-07:00

so today,school was great but rachelle dint came to school.well we pretty much gossip about alot of people.well thats not new.and i was all being racist and all.lets skip that

so went back home and my dad was very pissed and my brother as he frgt to pick me and my sister up.i think its the "crying season" apakan?well i realize that everyday mesti ada orang menagis.

i took my nap.HAHA.and woke up around 6.then after sungkai i was so bored so i played cs and wrote a letter to my dad,sibs and mummy.it was all bida as its in malay.i mean standard malay.well it was fun and everyone replied my letter.

i better get going now as i gt alot of letters to reply.

"theres no magic in sucess"-dad

i was all emo

2008-09-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

i cried 2 days in a row.not something to be proud off but atleast unlike some people who cried EVERY SINGLE DAY.

so my "bestest friend" came to my place yesterday.and he asked me to update myself,well he always say that whenever he thinks that i have something in my mind.

so i was letting it all out and i came to realize where i always blame people for the stuff i made.so i wana say sorry to all of you.but i try my best to change,but if i cant then im doing this my way.
im realy glad i had that talk as it open up my mind.he said "you know theres other people you should talk to kan?and you are gona tell kan?"-yeah i am,but ill wait for the perfect time.

after talking that much my tears just burst out and so he was talking about all his feelings and he cried.AWW.well i feel bad for saying this to him "bida jua kau ani eh,typical guys.they just cant move on with life" then he said with tears in his eyes "sanag sja kau ckp.atleast your still friends with all of them"

aBHO "hey thanks for leaving me,cause i almost love you forever"

and again you'll waste a time of your life readng this

2008-09-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

okay im extremly bored.i dont know why but i feel like writting something as i got nothing to do.well ada wich is chatting but now we got nothing to chat about.

as always i love saturdays,as its a family day and we always have people over to our house.so thats a good thing.plus my driver is coming back tomorow wich is a good news cus i miss him.now his back i can go anywhere.

ive been kinda busy this past few days cus i have to accompany my mom everywhere.well my dad is back!and thats another good news.

im looking forward for monday as im going out with them nad,its been ages now.the last time i saw her was july.OMG! i seriously need to see her and update myself.i rember going to her place like almost everday.good old times.

im also looking forward for tuesday cus gossip girl and one tree hil new episode is out.so yeah life gets even more perfect.

what im not looking forward is going to uk on the 11th
the reason for me not wana go there is because:-
1.im gonna miss my friends
2.im gonna miss my brother and sister and dad.
3.im not able to hang out that much with my brother as his gona fly back off to uk on th 24th
4.im gonna miss abg dens birthday.

the reason why i wana go there:-
1.mom ask me to accompany her to send off my other brother
2.i need to shop.

i just wasted a time of your ife as you read this

2008-09-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

i dint go to school today and decided to go to nads house as i miss her alot plus im flying off soon but then i was told to stay at home*sigh

so i was watching greys anatomy with my brother.

i know that everyone hav their secrets,

i got this from greys anatomy from meredith "people forget how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not."

i do agree with this but somehow i dont think its really a good thing to do,wel atleast for now.but hey i plan to tell the whole world about it someday when im ready.really if you keep all the things bottled up its a pain in the ass.